i have known about my submissive, masochistic, service-oriented nature from a young age, but at the time, i was innocently browsing the internet for resources centered around a video game i enjoy, Mass Effect. After typing in "turian"in the search bar, i accidentally happened upon Turian collars. Immediately enraptured by the new, exotic BDSM lifestyle, i researched and poked around and was honestly horrified. Gor, at the time, seemed too extreme a path for me to walk. The idea of giving myself wholly and completely to a man, of having no rights of my own--these things scared me.
Years passed, and with no explanation i have become enraptured with kajirae, with Masters, with the Gorean lifestyle. i am now dedicated to perfecting myself for a future Master, learning the aesthetic arts, the arts of pleasure, the domestic skills necessary to be the kajira that wars are fought over. i believe that, for me, personally, the role of a kajira is the role i was born into.
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This blog will talk about many aspects of my journey. It will be an arduous path of spiritual, mental, and physical perfection, and it is one for the time being i must walk alone, as i have no trainer or support to help me learn the way of the kajira. i will talk about:
- my belly dancing, ribbon dancing, and rope dancing classes
- Any art, jewelry, clothing, etcetera, i may create
- Plans for the Gorean retreat i intend to someday establish
- my personal thoughts about Gor, Masters, and being a natural born kajira. my struggles, my grasps at understanding, the things that confuse and astound me, the things i am scared of and the things i crave
- my spiritual journey
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About me
i was born in San Francisco, California. When i was 3 years old, my family and i moved to Austin, Texas, where we have lived ever since. i intend to go to school in Oregon, where i will hopefully settle with Master and establish a Gorean retreat and community.
i am a radical, trans-inclusionary feminist and a strict vegan. i love tattoos, playing violin, dancing, creating art, and being a sensual, natural being. i am an Aphrodite-devotee, a hard polytheist, and a Pagan. i am bisexual. In a heterosexual relationship, the only stimuli or draw for me is D/s. i am not interested in pursuing any vanilla relationships with men, and since finding Gor, i have been disinterested in vanilla relationships with women as well, though there was a time when i only saw myself spending my life with another woman.
Name: i go by fatima on this blog. fatima is not my real name, but it is one i very much like. Master may, in the future, choose to legally or common-law change or void my name and if so, i will inform You, but otherwise, You may refer to me how You wish.
Date of Birth: April 25th (taurus)
Blood Type: B+
Height: 160cm
Weight: 50kg
Nationality: Roma/French
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i began to write more under my "About me" section, but stopped myself. i was filling out questions such as: "favorite color," and "favorite food," when i realized that none of that really matters. Every fact about myself, aside from the physical realties that bind me, are fluid, subject to change should my Master choose it. It does not matter what colors i like to wear--i like to wear what He puts me in. It does not matter what i like to eat--i like to eat what He allows me to eat.
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Thank You for taking the time to read my introduction. Should You have any questions, i am always here to serve.
--kajira fatima
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